Thursday, June 19, 2008

45 is the new 35!

Thank you for your birthday wishes - I absolutely adore birthday wishes. My tremendous ego likes to get stuffed on the one day you're allowed special attention.

It's funny, I used to make a big brouhaha over my birthday, thanks to my early years when my mother would sing to me and make a big deal over my birthday. I guess it was a big deal for her as she had to do the birthing after all. For years, I would wake to the ringing phone of my mother's call singing me the happy birthday song. She doesn't spontaneously remember anymore, but I remind her now and I still get my song.

Now as I pass from one age bracket to another, (choke, choke!)I have to remind myself to be grateful that I even get to do that. I'm fortunate to even be older. Life is good. Thanks to my UFE procedure, my monthly period is so scant I get to use Tampax Lites. No more charting, no more thinking "what if", no more if I make that cute black girl my friend maybe she'll give me her eggs thoughts. Kidding.

I went to a women's chanting session yesterday and and the daimoku felt like horses galloping through my heart. As I watch my mother and my beloved dog, Sampson, get older and struggle, I realize that I need to be stronger. There are going to be lots of challenges ahead. Will I be ready to meet them? I've let so much slide away. I need to train harder. I got a list of bad habits a mile long, but today is not the day to list them. Today is my birthday, and when I look in the mirror and see the grey hairs, here, there and OMG, even there, I will also see someone who survived. She fell down, but she got up. She might have the old war injury that aches when it rains, but most of the time, she is getting stronger every day. She has a smile that still lights up a room.

And on that note - I'm gonna get this sore gluteus maximus (thanks spinning class) in gear and get out the door. I've got shit to do.

16 comments:

loribeth said...

Happy birthday!! I love your attitude.

I don't like to have a huge deal made out of my birthday -- but I don't like it to be ignored either. ; )

Wordgirl said...

We are almost sisters! Happy Birthday my friend -- I find so much wisdom and beauty in your blog -- so much light.

May this year be filled with light -- and beauty -- and peace.

XO

Pam

soapchick said...

Happy Birthday. Hope it's a great one!

Phoebe said...

I'm in good company here in the fabulous forties club! I was going to say something about your post, but I forgot! Haa haa! Oh, who needs those thoughts cluttering my head anyways? Happy birthday again! Age is a situation of "mind over matter". If you don't mind, it doesn't matter!!

Pamela Jeanne said...

45 RULES! Wishing you many, many years of peace, happiness and prosperity.

Egged Out said...

Happy Birthday!! Have a great job and enjoy the heck out of 45!

bleu said...

Happy Birthday, we have the same birthday. Go Gemini's!!!

I hope you have a great day.

Portraits In Sepia said...

Have a very happy birthday!

Tigger said...

Happy Birthday! :)

I know what you mean about letting things slide and needing to get back to them and fix them - I think we all do. But...we'll get there, in time. For now...enjoy your birthday!

luna said...

wishing you even more birthday wishes. you are a wise soul in a strong beautiful body with a kind and open heart. wishing you much joy.

Teendoc said...

Happy, happy, birthday!!! You sound great!

That's the spirit!!

annacyclopedia said...

Damn! I'm late - sorry I missed it yesterday, despite ample reminders over at the L&F. The only thing comforting me over my bonerheadedness is the thought that perhaps your ego would like to be stroked more than one day a year?

Happy birthday, dear Deathstar. May this year bring you peace, adventure, and joy beyond measure.

Deathstar said...

I love birthday wishes, early, late and in between!

tobacco brunette said...

Ooops...I'm late. But, happy birthday! I hope you had a great day!!

Torrance Stephens bka All-Mi-T said...

lol im 46 and they say i loook 30

Foreverhopeful said...

Happy Belated Birthday