Sunday, June 14, 2009

More on that hormone shit

Now that I'm temporarily free from the hormonal pit of hell courtesy of my period (am I actually thanking my period? Why - yes I am!), I'm thinking a lot more clearly. I have noticed my PMS which I've always had has noticeably gotten worse these past several months. You know the old bloaty, irritable feeling you get a week before your period? Mine has turned into 2 weeks before my period and my mood is really, really dark. I'm irritated even when I'm alone and am quite likely to yell at random drivers on the road. 'm starting to feel like the hubby really should get a night job and leave me alone with my candy and popcorn. Then I get my period and I feel so much bettter, more optimistic, even feel like spontaneously dancing. I suppose the estrogen (and other hormones) level has dropped and given me a break. I was talking to another woman about this cycle shifting crap last night and she told me she was on an antidepressant because of menopause. Holy crap! Is that what I've got to look forward to? This is the stuff I would ignore when they talked about it on TV and now I've got to start reading up. Skipped the pregnancy hormonal ride where you're ALLOWED to be crazy, as a matter of fact, people think it's cute and husbands volunteer to bring you ice cream and salty treats and rub your feet and gone straight to what's your F*** problem, here's a pill, you crabby woman!

Swell.

Well, I didn't do so well in prescription land last time, so I'm signing up for bootcamp next month. Yes. I said it. But the thought of my boobs sliding into my belly, well, that's my mother, not me. Not quite ready for that. The thought of enforced exercise and lots of salad doesn't exactly thrill me, but I don't really have much willpower or discipline, so I'm going to have to fake it until I make it. I don't have genetics on my side and if Mother Nature is intent on screwing me over, I'm going to have to fuck with her before I go down.

9 comments:

Beautiful Mess said...

GO YOU! Kick her ass!
I've felt the hormone shift before. Before my period EVERYONE pisses me off, then a day or two after I get my period, I'm all calm and nice again. Poor Husband has no idea wtf to do with it.
Good luck with boot camp! Maybe you'll end up enjoying it *don't hit me*
*HUGS*

OHN said...

I haven't had "the curse" for about 16 wonderful months now. Still get the tirades and the sweats though.

I have decided to use it to my advantage. Since husband never had any sisters, this is all new to him so I am letting it freak him out a little...it's kinda fun :)

Anonymous said...

Ug. I hear you. Have you read these? You might like her, if you haven't read her stuff before. I've been meaning to read them myself, I've just been procrastinating:

http://www.amazon.com/Wisdom-Menopause-Creating-Physical-Emotional/dp/0553384090/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1245028895&sr=8-1


http://www.amazon.com/Mother-Daughter-Wisdom-Understanding-Crucial-Daughters/dp/0553380125/ref=pd_sim_b_5

loribeth said...

AF is visiting me right now, oh joy. She kicks my ass for a good week or two before she arrives as well. I tend to get all weepy, or weirdly disconnected from dh. Sigh.

Deathstar said...

thanks Anonymous for the book recommendation - will go looking for it. I read a bit on Amazon.com and it looked useful.

Coming2Terms said...

We were clearly twins separated at birth...I totally had a PMS induced melt down and I mean supernova late last week just before AF showed up. Hubby thought I'd lost it. I thought I'd lost it ... I actually yelled at strangers (long story) and then the next day I felt as cheerful as could be. These female hormones are super crazy making...glad we're both aware of it. Like you I plan to make exercise more ... the endorphins have to counteract somehow!

Anonymous said...

Oh my god its so nice to know that I'm not just crazy! Yeh I got one of those IUD majiggers thinking that it would put an end to hormonal birth control hell (think PMS...every single day of the year) and yes I guess in retrospect its loads better. But see what it really does is condense a months worth of crazy into a week or so making it much more volatile. Yesterday I ate an entire pizza....and cried all day for no reason at all...and then would cry harder because i couldn't stop crying. I decided that being in public is a bad idea so i'm on lockdon but my man has been wonderful. He brought me ice cream and tea...but alas i'm still pissed off...just because he's a man...good ice cream though...i'll let it slide...this time :P

joan said...

I feel so bad 2 weeks before my period I have no engery I feel so tired, I eat all the time I look like im 9 months pregant, I am off balance, crabby, boobs feel heavy, this just really sucks, I hate it I am 41 and still going through this crap

Deathstar said...

Joan, I can't get to your blog or profile, but I did want to say that I didn't end up in bootcamp and I totally regret it now cause I'm heavier and crabbier. Lots of exercise and an early bed time is my only relief.